I just had the choir auditions. I do believe I sucked. Big time. Why do I have to be so nervous all the time? Why do I have to lose the tone when I could've not? What I hate is I can no longer say that there's next year cause there isn't. It's my last year in OB and that's what I gave. A distorted version of Reflection. UGH. I am so pissed at myself I knew how it should've sounded. I knew how to sing it right. UGH. I'm so embarassed and pissed.